Lunging or Lazy?

so i know i'm not setting any landspeed records for reading through the Bible. but little steps are still steps.

and in my reading tonight, i am challenged again. Jesus shoots straight with the apostles, saying that they're going to scatter like snow flakes in a tornado (is that even possible?) Peter gets all up in a tizzy, saying "you're wack...we'll stand strong through any attack!"

but then, just five verses later, Peter and all the other disciples fall asleep on the job, when Christ is in obvious distress and specifically asks them to stay alert & aware. FIVE VERSES LATER!!! apparently Christ catches the irony in this moment as well, when he declares:

"There is a part of you that is eager, ready for anything in God. But there's another part that's as lazy as an old dog sleeping by the fire."

I feel this dichotomy so strongly. i yearn deeply for God, desiring to scream his glory at the top of my lungs to the entire world with word & deed. and another part of me lies collapsed on the floor, immobile and slothly.

these are no mere stories. they are the same struggles we face today.