Baby Steps

by Ben

I read Isaiah 50-55.

Have you ever had a moment where God so convicted your heart, that it caused you to react in obedience?

Tonight, as Kate and I sat talking about the future, both hopes and doubts, I sensed that I was really far from God. I told Kate about the feeling and she said a very simple, but very poignant thing: that's not where we should be while we are trying to discern.

Our discussion turned very serious and became a time of confession about our joint and individual prayer life. We agreed to setup a routine, in order to help us make God a priority in our lives. (Yes, sometimes even Youth Pastors struggle with daily prayer)

So, here I am tonight, writing, after having read a small chunk of Isaiah, finding it difficult to comment on what I read. I think it is difficult to expound on the prophets anyway, but I am truly struggling tonight.

I think maybe this is the beginning of my 40 days in the wilderness. I want to follow God, but it is difficult to find Him. Because of my own disobedience, He seems far away.

I know He is calling, so I push on to find Him. I plan to keep going, although I know that I will face strong resistance. I am saddened to know that this will take on many familiar forms. Nevertheless, I know that I have been called to walk. And as the proverb goes: a journey of 1,000 miles begins with the first step. So, let's get to it.